Originally Posted by
Pinguanxious
Ok two days update
Day 16
6 days on 100mg
I woke up so so sick yesterday but the panic was better, around 11 started getting very dopey but could have been the diazepam too.
Appetite started to come back, evening was a bit better too, much less intrusive thoughts. Still waking up super early
Day 17
7 days on 100mg
Still woke up early, didn’t wake up in a blind panic but was agitated however had my first cbt so was nervous about that, cried a little during therapy, was told I have severe ocd and GAD which I knew but that it was causing major depression, also guessed this.
Went to work, boss came back from AL and he told me he wanted me to take the rest of the week off as my performance over the last two weeks has been poor. He wasn’t doing it to be mean, he’s doing it out of kindness and said he just wants me to rest and get my head back together. Cried a little then too
Anyways stayed at work to help with some stuff and I noticed my mood starting to shift, I laughed a couple times, and tonight the intrusive thought that’s been causing waves of panic I found only popped in my head every hour rather than every three minutes.
Tonight I’m also very calm, I still get the thought but it seems like it’s from a different part of me, one that scares me but at the same time I realise it’s irrational.
This is the best evening and afternoon I’ve had in the last 17 days, looks like the pills are finally working
Still a few loose bowels and mild nausea but my goodness I’m hungry and eating again.