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or the way I feel when I hit rock bottom which I do agree it’s not the place , I don’t know if my mental state and lack of sleep is making me paranoid or I’m being gaslighted into thinking it’s all in my head and I’m being over sensitive and needy , i really don’t know what’s real anymore .
I'd say that the way you're feeling, as in, you don't know what's real, sounds very much like you're being gaslighted Buster. The aim is to make people feel like their sanity is in question or they're at fault, when they're not.
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Apparently it’s farthers day today and three in the morning I can’t sleep laying here alone and feeling tearful like many other nights , partner sleeps downstairs most nights because she’s in pain or our old dog needs her , in my head it’s to get away from me , my daughters will probably pop round and I’ll have to fake being happy that make them happy .
I'm so sorry that you're feeling this way B. I know what it feels like to pretend you're ok when you're anything but Ok...