Re: Citralopram Starting out (day 3)
Hi Steve
Thanks for your support - be glad when I change! Just finding the right medication. Had this 15 years ago and went straight on Prozac and all sorted! Maybe it's because I am older now? My job gave me much distraction but have been off sick since November but in no fit state to go back - would frighten the patients! You sound very busy - really trying to help yourself - may I ask are you on meds?
I will pass on your regards to Kendra - she has a big following on here - she keeps in touch with Cathy Crumble do you remember her?
Take care
Laura
Re: Citralopram Starting out (day 3)
Hi Laura
Yes, I remember Cathy Crumble. How is she these days? I’m facebook friend with Kendra, but I don’t see the attraction. I’ve only got around 15 friends.
I suffer anxiety and panic attacks. Am I right in thinking you are more depression?
Started on 10mg cit in March and the dose went to 30mg within a few weeks. I’m also on beta-blockers, but I think doc will soon want me off those. Kendra and Lesley seemed to get an epiphany moment when the meds started to work. I’ve never had that. I just seem to have got better at living with the symptoms. I barely worked from January until a couple of weeks ago when I started a phased return. I have lots of difficult moments, but I’m coping. I’ve done lots of other stuff (CBT, psychiatrist, hypnotherapy, mediation, yoga, etc, etc) and I guess it’s all contributed a little.
David is an inspiration. He had kept going throughout the difficult periods. I’m aiming to do similar and then hopefully over time (a long time), the nasty stuff will slowly fade away.
Keep smiling and don’t rely on the meds. They may help, but you will beat this, with or without them.
Steve
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Good afternoon my lovely friends.
I have missed you all, so sorry I have not been in touch but I have been really really busy with working and sleep!! Hahah.
I just filled up reading all the posts, its been a really long year hasn't it?? I remember getting up first thing on a morning and loggin on here to see how everyone was and to moan about how I was feeling etc. We are slowly making it though!!! Small steps all the way!!
Well back to work full time now its so tiring but I love being back around all my lovely friends at work. They have helped me so much and I have come on loads since being back 6 weeks this week!!! Yey!!!!:)
A19 is going well but slow (still hate going on it like but still building up to the jorney on my own, not ready for it yet). The rest of my life is slowly getting back to normal!! Have good sleep, eat well and try really hard to push those horrible anxious feelings to one side!!
I'm in my 3rd month on 20mg after 2 month on 10mg. Think from now on it will only be good things happening. What a year!!! On new years eve I am going to celebrate in style and drink my way out of this horrible year!!!
Steve you sound so much better and well done for work!! It for me has been a godsend!! It really helped being here BUT I was ready for it!!
Alan you are getting there and did you make it to see Bruce Springsteen????
Hope eveyone else are ok and are getting there also I am always around to help and to listen to anyone who needs it!! :D
Im not going anywhere its just incase I dont have time to get on as much!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Love to you all!!!!
Kendra xxxxx
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Hi Kendra
So pleased you are getting on well - good for you and that you have been busy at work - Oink and Kestral are always mentioning you!
The Citalopram is not making me well at all I am afraid - have dropped down to 10mg and starting Venlafaxine next week. It is making me more depressed than ever but we are all different. It has been 10 weeks today - it's a shame it takes that long to find out but didn't really have a good vibe from the beginning - SSRIs are no longer for me I'm afraid.
Hopefully I will be able to toast with you on New Year's Eve to get rid of this horrible year! Annus Horribilis as the Queen would say!
Laura xx
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Just PMd you Laura!!
Sorry it hasnt worked for you but its been good for Pinkdove and a few other hasnt it??
xxxxx
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[QUOTE=kestral;1006674]hello folks, it seems as if the numbers of contributers have thinned out on this thread this week. ive been on a 4 day holiday at whitley bay and then a night at sunderlands stadium of light to see bruce springsteen. i didnt think i could do any of that but decided id got to give it a go, 4 nights away and sitting in a crowd of 50000, i had a little bit of panic but nothing over the top. the a19 road kendra doesnt like is a really demanding drive and requires all your concentration. no wonder it made her feel anxious.
my son has mended my laptop while ive been away, its now quicker as well now that hes cleaned it up.
nice to hear from you kendra. this was my update after my hols in the north east. we took the chance to visit the holy island and bamburgh castle and hartlepool.
it was the first time we visited hartlepool and it seems a nice place.
also have to say the sunderland people are some of the friendliest ive met and made our trip there so much more enjoyable.
alan:yesyes:
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Hi Laura
Yes, I remember Cathy Crumble. How is she these days? I’m facebook friend with Kendra, but I don’t see the attraction. I’ve only got around 15 friends.
I suffer anxiety and panic attacks. Am I right in thinking you are more depression?
Started on 10mg cit in March and the dose went to 30mg within a few weeks. I’m also on beta-blockers, but I think doc will soon want me off those. Kendra and Lesley seemed to get an epiphany moment when the meds started to work. I’ve never had that. I just seem to have got better at living with the symptoms. I barely worked from January until a couple of weeks ago when I started a phased return. I have lots of difficult moments, but I’m coping. I’ve done lots of other stuff (CBT, psychiatrist, hypnotherapy, mediation, yoga, etc, etc) and I guess it’s all contributed a little.
David is an inspiration. He had kept going throughout the difficult periods. I’m aiming to do similar and then hopefully over time (a long time), the nasty stuff will slowly fade away.
Keep smiling and don’t rely on the meds. They may help, but you will beat this, with or without them.
Steve
Hi Steve
No I have never felt that epiphany moment either! It's strange because the psychiatrist said my Pure OCD was fuelled by anxiety - and have suffered with GAD for years and take lorazepam - however, since I have not got well - since Oct - think my mind is tired with it all and the depression has raised its ugly head - and very bad depression too!
Am seeing psychiatrist tomorrow and in the last 4 weeks since last appoint have really gone downhill - don't suffer, fortunately, with panic attacks. Just keep getting CBT homework and whilst feeling like this - find it a chore! Think a psychology student would struggle - different if I felt a bit better - would enjoy it!
Anyway - guess it is taking one day at a time but pleased you have got back to work.
Take care
Laura
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Hello All
Laura, there are ups and downs but I’m sure you are making progress. Even if you are feeling worse, at least you are moving forward with the meds and finding what works. Yes, I think the depression must be horrible. I get the occasional shadow; those stark feelings. Luckily they are fleeting. I’m sure your psychiatrist is the right person to help, so try to do what they say.
Kendra, glad you find time to give us an update. You are doing so well, and of course deserve to feel better. For me, getting back to work has helped too. I feel more and more like I can do everything I want to do, and everything I used to be able to do. Albeit with the occasional anxiety….but I’m believing more and more that they will eventually disappear. Oh, and just for the record, I don’t think I mention you all the time! :D
I’ve had a couple of good days. Yesterday was close to how I used to be, today was good, but not quite so. My sleep is still bad, and being tired is a hinderance. On Thursday I was my usual self in meetings, speaking up and saying what I think. Didn’t get anxious. The travel was fine. Spoke to lots of people, even got a bit of work done. Today I've been tired, but still managed fine. Looking forward to a good nights sleep.
Finished my book; “the art of racing in the rain” last night. Have any of you read it? I was in floods of tears! The dog in it reminds me so much of our older one. I recommend it. There’s even some comment on living in the moment and making the most of life. Lots to make you think.
It’s raining heavily here, but at least we’re not flooded. I guess it will be a weekend of sleeping and eating. Can’t be bad. Have good weekend all.
Steve
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Alan, how do you deal with these flutter/ panics that we share? Any tips?
hi steve, im sorry to say ive never found a way of dealing with these horrible feelings. usually im checking my pulse at the slightest twinge. i can feel it jumping eratically sometimes but ive had so many tests and checks done and have been told each time its nothing to worry about, but i do worry and always think the worst. have you had any tests done and if so what did the gps have to say?
alan
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Hi Alan
Thanks for the reply. I feel a bit of a sitting duck to the attacks too, but for me I think they are getting less frequent. Don’t want to jinx anything though!
Today has been fine. Done stuff around the house and kept myself busy in spite of the rain. I managed to walk dogs and also go for a run during less wet moments. Feel a little bit stiff now, but that’s fine. I can relax and eat lots and not feel guilty!
I’m not sleeping very well. I’ve a feeling it’s the cit. Does anyone else suspect this? I wake at around 2am most nights, then sometimes barely sleep from then on. My head has a sort of empty, ringing feeling. It’s by no means unpleasant. I’m sort of relaxed, but wide awake. I’m getting around 8-9 hours bed-time, so maybe I need to reduce it a little, then I’ll sleep through. Anyway, it’s a relatively trivial comlaint given where I’ve come from. Can happily live with it!
I’m still off the booze. I’ve been completely dry since March, so just over 4 months. It’s been so long, it almost seems a shame to drink again. I was in the habit of a few drinks on the sofa in front of the telly. Well within safe limits, but a sort of habitual drinking. I’m wondering whether to give up for good. Don’t think I will. I just wonder if I’ve got the self control to have the occasional drink when out with friends, but kick the drinking at home. Having said all that, isn’t alcohol good for you these days? I don’t know.
Hope you all doing okay. Chelle, not heard from you for a while. Would be good to get an update. Any news on your MRI scan? I’m still waiting (3 weeks for me).
Steve