Ten years ago I had a week when we turned off our eldest son from his ventilator. He was 36 and had brain tumour but the operation did not work and he was brain dead . I was already diagnosed with breast cancer and surgeon would not delay any longer. So I had op. And after 3days got out of bed to go to I.t. Unit to end Andrews life. Obviously life never same again but with other children and grand children I had to put myself back to some kind of normality. I take 2 mg. Valium as and when. That is my background. We moved house 6 years ago and have had nothing but trouble from the buyers. The other day a new letter saying he was going to sue because he thought there was subsidence. My husband is 83and I am 74 . Icannot cope with this abusive man. He was banned from seeing our solicitor. How do I stop myself thinking about this all the time. Every day I wake up in dread. Any comments would be so useful.