I really do feel as though I am going mad! :(
gradually over the last couple of years my anxiety has grown to the point now where I feel myself starting to panic at the silliest of things!
It started originally with me panicking when I was going abroad for holiday - I would be physically sick before travelling to the airport, once in the airport I would be fine until it came to actually getting on the plane! I would then have panic attacks whilst on the plane worrying that I wouldnt be able to get out of my seat to get to the toilet if someone sat next to me and blocked me in - again this would make me physically ill! The plane itself doesnt scare me as I love flying - its just the feeling of what if I feel sick - what if I cant get to the toilet etc that gets me started!
These feeling have now spread to everyday life and if I am not doing something as a routine (ie, travelling to work in my car) I start to get worked up about it! My work have asked me to attend a training course in a different office, in a different city, and I just cannot go through with it! - I agreed initially but now it has crept up on me I feel physically ill thinking that I have got to get on a train to some strange place and a strange office with people I dont know!
I am so frustrated as this is not like me and I really do want to travel to different places and do different things - but the thought of it twists me up inside! The whole situation is getting me down and I find myself crying at the silliest things!
I have tried to speak to my partner about it but he just doesnt understand and thinks I am being silly - and tells me to just get on with it and I will be fine! - but I know I wont be!
If anybody has any advice or had similar experience please let me know as it would help me loads - I feel as if I am the only one feeling like this, and everyone else seems to live a normal life!
Thanks
Kerry