i havent seen my son for about 15 or more years now, and i think about him everyday. most nights i dream about him. my daughters tell me its him not me, as even his dad has the same problems with him, so do they ! they say its just him. and one day he will remember his mum. i send him birthday and even xmas cards, even the odd text message when i get the right phone no, for him but he changes it a lot and they never get answerd.
God only knows how much i love him even if he was a really bad sort, a mothers love is unconditional. its very painful, i fell it is all my fault as i had to leave this father, for my 2 daughters. at the time for there own safty.