Just wanted to share... this is my first post in this section. I'm generally against the use of meds, I don't believe in them much, but I've come to a point where I think there is just no way for me to get better unless I give meds a try. I feel somewhat guilty ... for wanting an easier way out, but at the same time, I think I've suffered enough already and deserve some extra help. I've been fighting with this for 2 years on my own and yes, there is progress, but it's not significant enough. I'm scared too, of the side effects mostly. I'm also afraid that maybe I will be disappointed if the meds don't work the way I expect them too, which will make me even more depressed. But in life nothing is certain right ... there's no guarantees. You take a chance and just hope for the best.
In the state that I'm in I can't benefit much from psychotherapy. I think maybe if I get even a little bit better I will be able to beat this. So I visited a new doctor today. He was highly recommended by a friend of my father's. He prescribed Seropram (I think that's the same as Citalopram, Celexa and Cipramil) and Rivtoril (Clonazepam , I think, it's a tranquilizer). And I guess I'm starting tomorrow morning ... I expect the worst, but I hope for the best.