My brother had a blood test today as his on clozapine and his white blood cells are low. so there re- running tests tommorow and watching him closely.
This is a rare side effect of clozapine but it basically means its killing his immune system and i feel awful for him.
http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=103915 this thread explains more about it :|
i feel anxious as he means so much to me and my family and i dont want to loose him also i swear there is squirrels in the loft. they were found 2 years ago and i hear bangs from up there... i can see a hole outside the house were sparrows have made but i wonder if squirrels are getting into.
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its so hard watching him full apart like he is ;(
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My mum keeps crying and is very anxious about him. I dont want anything else to happpen to him pyhsically. :'(
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i cant even sleep :(
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if i go to bed i wont wake up- there will be a fire or ben will be worse in the morning and ill miss my chance to say goodbye.
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also i just accidently filled a dirty glass and drank out of it and felt something like dust on it go down my throat. my anxiety is sky high tonight.