It's my 4 day on citalopram. I'm badly depressed (posttraumatic + panic attacks, no eating, no sleeping) for many years, but refuse to get a treatment, until I broke all my life. Everything I ever had I loose. I have nobody and nothing. Only that stupid pills, whih I need to belive, change my life.
Doc said that it's not my foult that I feel like this. And that it's possible to get my REAL me back, from the past, until all that wrong was happened.

Something in my is afraid to belive. Bloody hell, it's only the pills... My suffering is so deep long.

I dont feel any difference. Nothing good or wrong, just nothing.

Please, help me to belive.