After reading someone elses very informative first few months on fluoxetine,I decided to post my own experience.....perhaps it may help someone else,who knows,and also in months to come,I can read it back to myself and hopefully see positive progress (I know there will be lows along the way)
mon 5th Dec; ring docs for emergency app't ,cant stop crying and doom and gloom thoughts are out of control,30mg propranolol having no effect whatsoever,panic attacks escalating.missing my daughter who's on school trip abroad and just cant cope in general.
see lovely doctor,given course of 20mg fluoxetine and lots of other advice after many more tears.come home feeling better but shattered.
tue 6th Dec; too scared to take first dose last night,but after a terrible nights sleep,decide to take 1st dose....what have i got to lose?
still carry on with propranolol as well.Went to bed early at 9pm,tossed and turned until 12;30 am,but eventually slept until 6;45,so not bad.
Wed 7th Dec;take next dose in morning. go bed early again,struggle to sleep,not because of worry,but my hubby snores!!! I give up and get in my daughters bed....she always gets in with my youngest.Sleep from 11;30ish till 6am.....pretty good night.Not slept like that for months,but i did also take some strong cocodamol for back pain.No side effects as yet.
Thurs 8th Dec; feeling a bit more upbeat,go xmas shopping with my Mum,feel calm and possibly even happy.got a little bit panicky in a few shops but remembered to breath slowly....scared this wont last and i,ll have a big attack......realise that keeping busy takes my mind off my thoughts.trying to cut out coffee,still feel nauseous in mornings (not because of meds.....anxiety) but this has passed by lunchtime.
go bed about 11pm,awake at 5am feeling very weird,sweaty,horrible tingly feeling in arms and chest...horrible thoughts.....absolutely no way can get back to sleep,give up and get up.
Friday 9th Dec;
have a few cups of tea,but cant shake this weird feeling,i go online for reassurance ,find many people feel like this in first few weeks....can i ride the storm? dont know,but im not giving up....i want my life back