Thanks Katie - yep, I do want to keep with it, I took Prozac years ago and I think I remember going back to the doctor after a couple of weeks because of the awful side-effects, but he persuaded me to stick with it and I came out of it eventually. I just feel really hopeless going through this stage, especially missing work. No one that I know of in my office has ever been off with this kind of thing before, so I feel quite self-conscious that they're going to wonder where I am, which doesn't help.
I take the pills at night - usually I feel worst in the morning, so I didn't want to have the levels in my blood to be at their lowest first thing. I was sleeping just great until last night, so I don't know if it's the meds, or (more likely) the stress of going through the work thing - I'm really disappointed to find I can't concentrate enough to stay at work. Last time, I was really proud of myself that I managed to keep going to work. But maybe I need to cut myself some more slack.
As you say, it'll all be worth it eventually - every day completed is one day closer to the turning point.
I don't want to be just sitting around on my own doing nothing, but today I do just feel like I need some rest, so it's me, the sofa and the TV. Might get up and tidy up a little bit later, and I texted a friend who also takes Prozac and said she'd phone later and maybe pop over.
I remember you mentioned the dinner before. Maybe a nap this afternoon would give you the energy to last a bit longer through the evening? Do your partner's parents know what you're going through at the moment?
Sue xx
PS - just gonna private message you something too...