Hi all,
I used to frequent this forum a couple of years ago but went through 6 months of CBT and thought i'd kicked my health anxiety into touch. Thought is the operative word here! I seem to be regressing back to my worrying days and losing sleep over small things again.
Well, since i hit 40 i've had a few things happen to me. Firstly, at the start of 2011 i was diagnosed with a degenerative neck disorder. Everyone gets this - it's just it normally appears around 60 or 70 years of age. Around June time i went blind in my left eye. This was discovered to be Central Serous Retinopathy, where the retina tears and the serous fluid seeps behind it and causes a bubble. No treatment needed - just rest. It is a stress related condition but it now means i cannot touch steroids or cortizone creams.
So, through all of that my health anxiety was pretty good (i had a dodgy moment when my eye was getting worse but i controlled it). Zoom through to this last couple of weeks and i'm back to not being able to sleep and unwelcome thoughts entering my head.
I have had what seems to be a cold for 3 or 4 months now and it's not really a full blown cold, just a day or two of feeling rough - then better - then rough. I have had a cough for pretty much that length of time. Kind of like a tickly throat cough coupled with a dry throat. On top of this i seem to have a constant aching pain around my xiphoid process (tender to touch, like a bruise) and in my back (the same feeling i had with the beginnings of pneumonia i suffered from several years ago) and side (again, tender to touch between the ribs). Finally i have the "lump in the throat" condition. I do feel like it's the "about to cry, but hold it back" pain but i also feel like i've been running in the cold and it's going all the way down my gullet/windpipe. This one is getting to me the most. It's only on the right side and it's always in the same place - sort of behind and to the right of my adam's apple.
I'm kind of putting the xiphoid pain down to the fact that it cracked really badly when i stretched a few years ago and has been doing that ever since, but i can't for the life of me shake the bad thoughts about my throat. I've done the usual google-the-symptoms thing and found the plethora of cancers and the like (annoyingly, there was also a story today in the news about a woman who coughed up a cancerous tumor from her throat - why do you find these things when you worry?!), then suddenly had the idea of coming back on here. I know i shouldn't be concerned but it's just the length of time i've had these symptoms that niggles me. Internal soft tissue problems and glands are my achilies heel!
Apologies for the length of this and for only coming back when there's something wrong but i know it was useful to me the last time i felt this way. Not sure what i'm expecting from you guys but it helps to discuss with like minded people!
Thanks for listening.
Acid
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Oh, another thing worthy of note is that my neighbour and friend was diagnosed with melanoma last year. The mole was over 8mm deep and anything over 4mm is considered advanced. The good news is... she had some lymph nodes removed and tested and now she is clear of cancer. brilliant, but the whole thing was very close to me. That may be another possible cause for my setback.