General Anxiety turning Agrophobic

[emz244]

Hi All,

I am pretty new to this and am finding it really scary. I have grown up with a Mum who may i add is my best friend- that now suffers with severe Multiple Sclerosis. When i was in my teens i used to smoke alot of cannabis known as skunk which i have not touched for 4 years now but feel this opened up the beginning of my problems. Basically cut a long story short i nearly lost my mum in 2009 and saw things only u guys see in your knightmares happening to your loved ones and since then i havnt been the same.

My anxiety is just awful i more aless fight it off 24/7 but mainly at night i just cant control it and it scares me soooooooo much its un real. I feel like im going nuts sometimes! Can anyone else relate??? im 25 and would love to find someone in my situation- anxiety and terrified of loosing the person they love most x

[mimijr]

Hey there. i can really feel your pain in this situation. after years of child hood trauma has caught up to me my anxiety has reached heights i never knew possible. everything ive ever been afraid of just came at once. i went away to a hospital for a little while and tried various medications. ive been out for a few months and am still struggling to find medicine that helps. i am absolutely helpless without benzos (klonopin, xanax) i fear losing the ones i love as well. i to am best friends with my mom who has struggled with severe alcoholism and is co dependent and causes so much anxiety for me.

anxiety is so hard to over come. i can relate to you, and i wish you the best.

i learned something called "radical acceptance" which basically means you have to slowly learn to let go of the uncontrollable. ive tried to adapt the kind of belief that everything happens for a reason and we can't let anxiety and depression ruin our lives. ive already felt that ive lost some of my young life to anxiety and general miserable life.

i wish the best for you !! -deep breathe-

<3

[theharvestmouse]

Emz, what's you life like at the moment, do you work or are you in education, do you have friends that you socialise with? Or do you have to care for your mum?

I can relate to the fear of losing someone, and sometimes I get anxious about it but you cannot shoulder all that on your own because it will make you feel so pressured. There are things in life we have no control over and we have to accept that.

[sickandtired]

I am exactly the same about my Mum.After a traumatic childhood,I thought I,d dealt with my painful memories during my teens....by getting drunk,taking drugs and generally showing the world Im ok (when really i wasnt)
Im now 40 with a family of my own....last year my Mum (who is also my best friend) had a seizure in front of me and it scared the life out of me....I really thought she was dying.I now know this triggered off some very painful memories and I began having obsessive thoughts about my loved ones dying.....plus other horrible intrusive thoughts which I wont go into.I was having panic attacks and really thought I was going mad....crying....fretting....irritable,jumpy,feeli ng so low,hopeless,couldnt wash,couldnt keep on top of the housework or anything....and I suffered terrible insomnia...lucky if i got 3 hours sleep a night....
you cannot take all this on alone.....you need help....go and see your doctor please...there is help out there xxx
good luck