Hi very new to this forum but it looks like its the best place to get good advice which is something i really need right now. Tommorow is my first day back at work since i had a huge panic attack and embarrassed myself, and i am really, really scared. I was meant to go to my other small job at a tutoring centre tonight, and i was that frightened that something might happen that i didnt go. As a result, I got very depressed and slept for 3 hours, even though i wasnt that tired. Just to avoid a conflict and to avoid disappointing my parents i told them that karen (the woman who runs the centre) cancelled on me. This made me feel even worse. My doctors suggested taking half a valium if im feeling tense, but i dont want to be taking this everyday i have to face work. I am so sick of hiding the way im feeling from my parents and those around me! I put on a happy face everyday even though a lot of the time i just want to break down and cry. I have to admit, the last couple of days have been better since being away from work but im just so afraid that tommorows going to throw everything into chaos. God, even my place of relaxation and release, the gym, is something i cant face. I dont want it to reach a stage where im unable to leave the house. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.