Re: Thought of harming others doesn't cause me panic..I am scared!!!
They are just thoughts, and its so scary as its totally opposite of who you are... these intrusive thoughts are generally aimed at those we LOVE the most.... i had it once when my mum stayed over one night.... she'd gone to bed and i was downstairs and suddenly i just had the thought of I could kill her.... i neally passed out with the panic state i went into... i didnt sleep, and when morning came i just wanted to take her home, to get her away from me..... but i know I WOULD NEVER hurt her, or anything for that matter, i couldnt harm a fly.... thats why it scares us so much, because its against our nature of who we are.... the more it scares you the more the thought comes back... the more you push it away the more it comes back....
The reason you are not panicking so much now by the thoughts, is because YOU KNOW you wouldnt harm him, and you know its just a thought.... so its nothing to do with not caring and not being bothered by the thoughts now.... so its good that they dont cause panic now, as you are realising the thoughts for what they are.
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.....when all is said and done and we come to the end of our lifes journey, posessions will have no meaning, and the only important questions will be 'was i loved and did i love enough?'.....