Lately I've been having obsessive thoughts about harming myself or others. I've been working on giving those thoughts no importance and it seems to be helping so far. However, I still have thoughts of "what if I DID harm myself and die, how would my family and friends be affected?" and I ALWAYS get this huge lump in my throat and want to cry. I'm a little bit scared because I do not get actual anxiety with these thoughts, if I do it's very seldom. I always just want to cry, which can be rather embarrassing if I'm in public. Opinions/advice?