Re: Harm OCD- advice please!!
Oh Scared - I am sorry that you have been having a rough time. Firstly I am guessing that both the Samaritans and A & E thought there wasn't a threat as they would have done something.
What you are saying about your anxiety levels haven't peaked whilst having the thoughts in the past few days is normal. Firstly anti-depressants can numb you anxiety feelings so not feeling as anxious is a normal reaction to the tablets - but even if you weren't taking the tablets and you weren't feeling as anxious isn't a "sign" that you are accepting the thoughts and will act on them. It's just that you are so used to dealing with these thoughts that you anxiety levels don't necessarily need to jump as high as they once did.
I have been round and round with my own obsessional thoughts in the same exact way....why am I thinking this if I don't want to act on it? Or I didn't feel as scared or as anxious that time does that mean I am accepting that it is me and not the ocd and I will act on it? Sound familiar? It's just the devil that is OCD my love.
Take peace in that because you are so worried and write on here means that you won't act on it because in order to commit suicide you need the intent and you don't have it. You just have thoughts...that's all.
Take care xxx
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