Thanks Lesley, cant seem to concentrate on anything today, I just keep filling up and crying!! I just want to be mr again so bad!! My mam said maybe I am just going to feel this way all the time now and I said if I thought I was going to be I wouldnt be here anymore!! Through all this I have never felt like this until today. How can I even think this way when I have my beautiful boy!! Its not right!!
So sorry for going on when you are feeling so bad too, just feel I have no one else that understands it!!! Cant help thinking that it would be easier for everyone if I wasnt here, i just pull everyone down and make them unhappy. What kind of mam am I for my little Wills being like this?? He deserves better then me for a mam!! I want to block it all out now, im sick of it!! xxxxxxxx