Day 4 - Well that was the shortest experiment in reducing dosage ever, since having tested the water I have decided to go immediately back up to 15mg
Having got myself in a position where I felt marvellous on 15mg supported by exercise, meditation, good diet and some other things, coming down to 7.5mg was possibly a case of "if it isn't broken don't try and fix it". But, because I was feeling so good, I felt that it was the right thing to do.
Ironically it was the physical withdrawal effects I was worried about, the mental health side never crossed my mind as I just felt so good. But as this week has wore on, the physical side has been a complete non-event, but I have found changes happening in the way I see the world as the levels of mirt have been reducing.
At first yesterday I felt like I was sobering up, or "landing" back on planet earth. Like the past year's influence of mirt was starting to wear off. This is fine if the world still looks and feels great afterwards. But if I'm honest, today I started to feel like the endless enthusiasm and happiness that I'd found was just starting to fade a little, that I had become a bit jaded. The way I felt reminded me of the person I was before I started on medication in the first place, that slightly different frame of mind and way of seeing the world you'll understand if you've suffered from depression.
I'd rather not continue this and try and wait it out because I don't have to. So with apologies to those who were looking forward to this account of coming off Mirt, I have decided to go back up to my optimal dose of 15mg which I know works a treat and revisit this idea again maybe in 3-4 months.
I guess at this stage of my recovery, my wellbeing is based on both the chemical effects of mirt and the effects of other therapies like meditation. I'd hoped the mirt had been superceded by the latter - but obviously not yet.
My stomach however is very happy with this news FEED ME...