hi all,
for those who read my previous post "is this harassment" posted a few weeks ago im afraid to say i have had a terrible incident today (dont worry im not physically hurt).
basically i posted recently to say how positively things were going by following the polices advice....but unfortunatley it seems my "cooler" behaviour towards the person causing me concern lead to today.
today whilst at work i was approached by an older gentleman....who was infact the transexual who has been causing my problem. He introduced himself and said he was the gurdian angel of the woman he dresses up as..... he then continued to say that person had died and he was avenging those who had caused this. He quickly became menacing saying he was going to "FING kick the S*** out of people" and then leered he wasnt a nice person. I ran off the floor crying while a collegue told him to leave. We then locked the doors and called the police.
While awaiting for the police i had the worst series of panic attacks i have ever endured. It was horrific. Then things got even worse. He started trying to access the store via the back door....and when this failed he tried the front. I was a screaming hysterical mess, convinced he would get me..... so we rang 999. he left flowers and a letter (which the police showed me- i couldnt touch as evidence). The letter was a funny apology really, ending with "when NAME returns I hope you wont shun her because i saw the horror on your face".......
the police have been fantastic as has my area manager. He is now banned from contacting me or approaching me (as a man or woman) and also banned from all of our stores. Sadly though i dont feel relieved.
i feel so scared!!! i keep panicing and thinking imagining the what ifs and what might happen from here. I feel so vunerable and i feel like I have lost a bit of myself. I cant imagine serving customers in my bubbly friendly nature like i have, and i feel like i will forever look over my shoulder :( I cant relax tonight. i feel physically ill, my body twitchy and shakey.....sweaty, sick and this horrible feel of unease :( i also feel embaraased about the panic attacks i had in front of my collegues. I think they were pretty shocked....although they were lovely :(
anyway any thoughts on anything that could help would be great...thanks for listening x x x
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im also totally over worrying wondering does he know where i live.....does he know where my son goes to nursery? would he try and steal my son? o god the thoughts are spiralling i feel like just hiding away, like i cant fight all this fear anymore. i hope this is a reaction and i get better soon :( so frightened x