Re: My Fears
Hallam - All ocd sufferers can relate. I have pure-ocd that is just horrible at times. I was bad a few years back, then 100% normal again and it is only that past month it's been bad, and already I am feeling better. My main fears are a) that I'd hurt someone and b) that I'd lose my mind and go crazy...either start hearing voices or have hallucinations. Anytime I heard the smallest noise or ear-ringing I'd think "It's happening!" But obviously, in these past 5 years NOTHING has happened.
Now no matter what, someone with ocd can hear all the reassurance in the world but it still doesn't put their mind at ease. This is like someone with health anxiety as well. If they think they might have cancer it doesn't matter how man doctors tell them they don't they still won't be convinced.
So how do we really know that these things won't happen? Obviously we can't, but the fact that your so caught up in this and you know you have ocd is enough. There are thousands of people who suffer like you do, and they never carry out their thoughts. I remember I couldn't even look at knives and now I laugh when I think about how ridiculous that was! But I know in your mind it seems 100% real and the possibility is there. I can't offer you a cure, but hopefully this will put your mind at ease a bit, especially since I can totally relate to you!
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