Hi all
Just wanted to talk about my condition, write it down somewhere while i can. Firstly like to say im not sucidical well i would never act on it, even if i feel like i could.
I just dont know what to do with myself, ive had a mental health issue since i was 19 im now 28 and life if i looked at it is good, im getting married at the end of the month, i have a job that looks after me with the massive amount of days off i have, i should be happy but im not, well not with myself.
At the moment i just feel like i cant live, my thoughts stop me from doing so much or make me feel like i should be doing something so i cant relax i feel so stuck. The only thing i can do is going on ps3 or surf net as i get so into them i dont think but then i get annoyed that i cant do anything else so it starts all over again.
Ive been told i have ocd which is filled with doubt, i just cant do anything i feel like did i do that, have i hurt someone? Did i say something? Did i pick that up? did i open the door? did i lock the door? just so many questions.
The most annoying one tho is talking as i feel so doubtful all the time. I cant seem to shake off "did i say that? can i talk?" and with that i feel i cant express anything and i get so bored just feel like shutting off.
I know this is all over the place but just writting as it comes to me.