I don't count like I used to. But I count. I can't stop. I count everything I do. Just now, I don't have to count in eights. I just have to count. The seconds it takes to chew or swallow, or think, or breath. Before I would force everything into my eight count. Now everything is just in a count. I feel uneasy when things aren't numbered. It has. To have a number! It. Has to have a beat!