Hello

I am 29 years old, I suffer from obsessive thought since i remember my self.
In fact nobody knows about that, because i feel ashmed about my thoughts, as i think my mind is busy with stupid thoughts. my problem is that i can't stop thinking about my eye's blinking.
I know its a normal and natural function, but i can't get rid of that, i think about my blinkings every second of my awakness, and i can't bare the fact my eyes are making the same movement over and over again (although i know its nececerly) and it messed up my all life. Its like I'm stuck in this pattern. it ruins my concentration for when im watchin the tele or reading.

I was given cipralex 20 m.g per a day, i am doubt it will help me.
now i am depressed, and I hate my self because i am consantrate in such a norml thing, i know that one doesn't need to worry about such a thing, but in my case it's behind my control, and it makes me suffer so badly. I can't explain why but sometimes I can't stop crying because of that. I know it seems crazy, but thats my problem.

I would like to ask if someone has ever heard about such an obsessive thought?
sometimes i think i am all alone.
and i would like to ask for a good advice.
please forgive my english, as it is not my language, i hope i made my self clear.

best wishes,
Mali