Today I feel I've taken two steps back - team offsite meeting today followed later by dinner - had very dodgy stomach last night after dinner (that I cooked !!) went to the meeting this morning didnt feel 100% but thought it will pass just drained - I then started to shiver in a room where the others were hot, nauseas, stomach pains (haven't eaten anything today yet can't face it)
arent these all symptoms of social anxiety / panic attacks
not had problems with local offsite meetings for 6 months - but have with dinners out (I made an excuse on the last team dinner that I wasn't feeling well!) my boss knows about my social anxiety & is very understanding thank god - when I told him he asked if there was anything he could do to help
In the past 6 months I have been trying to build up gradually going out socially - out to lunch with the team / mothers day dinner and dinner with the girls from work and yes was a little nervous but got through them (yes wine was involved but not copious amounts in all)
I'm now sat on my sofa still not feeling great and very annoyed & disappointed with myself - I wanted to conquer the team dinner and had a plan in place to do that - now I feel like I've failed.
am I ill (guess time will tell) or did I panic in a situation that I thought i had conquered.
I've had social phobia for about 15 years some years better than others and want to beat it but an struggling