Ok Im clear of breast cancer now my new worry

[lisak789]

After my stillbirth in January ( he was full term due to a cord accident he passed away) I guess you can say I went a little loopy. I got this huge fear that I had breast cancer, I had a bad burning going through my right breast and thought for sure that is it I am done for. After a mamogram, two different breast ultrasounds, blood work, chest x ray, chest ct scan shoulder x ray.. I have come to the conculsion I must be ok. I went to a breast specialist who said that I am so clear of anything in my breasts the only other thing he could do would be to take the breasts off so that I dont worry, He was joking of course. Now I have thought maybe I have something wrong with my throat, not that it hurts, or anything just on my right side under my jaw has always been a little lumpyer then the rest, though on my CT scan it said I had a calcified lymph node on my right side of my throat though I am not sure that is where they ment. So now when I should be feeling relieved and happy I am worried like crazy again. I wanted to try again to have another baby before I am to old, I am 34 now. But I think I am doomed and crazy. I honastly believe that I must be nuts to constantly worry so so much. I think with all the tests that I have had in the last two months something would have turned up abnormal if I had a cancer of some sort right? My hopes and dreams are being shattered due to the fact I think I am dieing every five minutes.

[Anxious_gal]

Sorry to hear :(
Did you ever find a reason or cause for the burning in your breast ?
It's a natural reaction to freak out in worry when you have a physical symptom .
It becomes anxiety when you attach too much fear to it , when you imagine the worst,
I guess what I'm saying it's not so much the symptoms that are the issue, but the fear we attach to it.
So the lump in your jaw is harmless , so it's not the lump that's the problem it's the obbsessive worry about it .
I do think the trauma of losing your child and the phycial symptoms caused your anxiety , it can also be genetic too in some people .
You're stuck in a cycle , you notice a symptom and worry about it , then your maintain the fear by googling it or getting more tests than you might need.
Anxiety is somewhat of habbit , you feel like youre going round in circles trying to find a way out .
Seems like health anxiety , I get that too . Often a tiny symptom snowballs into convincing your self something is wrong or you have cancer.
Aw my dear anxiety is not rational
So don't think you're crazy as you're fully aware you have anxiety , that you worry too much and over react to stuff .
Have you seen a CBT therpist or someone to help you get unstuck n break the cycle of fear ?

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http://cognitivetherapyonline.com/cbt4panic/
I've been using this program , its all about the cycles we get stuck in and it's explained in a way I can understand . It teaches you how to take the fear out of the symptoms .
My biggest mistake was avoiding everything that caused me anxiety , going eventually it'd go away .
I did need to reread the book/comic style , a few times for it to click.
I'm not sure how helpful it is for health anxiety but it helped me with my panic attacks and and general anxiety.