I've posted here before with stresses that I have about my job. I've stuck it out for about 6 months now - some days have been not-so-bad, but some have been downright terrible. I've made one friend (just one) and I'm just tired. I keep telling myself that I am going to quit, but I keep putting it off.
I wanted to get out before they started to give me more responsibility - I don't want it and am not ready for it. However, they've started. My stress level right now is through the roof. I'm a trustworty employee - they know this- and they take advantage of me because of it. There's no real kindness with this responsibility, I am just expected to do it.
I'm a VERY stubborn person and am definitely the type to just thumb my nose and them and never return. I really, really want to. But I also don't want to leave them high and dry and I don't want any awkwardness or for them to hate me and this stresses me out to the point that I'm going to have to just pick a time to do it and make up some sob story as to why I'm leaving. I care far too much what others think.
I already know I can't work next semester as I will be a junior in college and getting into more serious - and difficult - courses I need to focus on. I wanted to quit mid-summer, but again, I know some people are leaving at that time and I don't want them to hate me.
This IS my first job working for someone other than family, and as you can see, I'm struggling. I'd love some advice. I keep telling myself I am strong and capable but it gets old after awhile, like I am just lying to myself.
Thanks.