Hi all, Hope everyone is doin ok? This website is fantastic!!!! I have suffered from varying degrees of anxiety and depression since I was 15. It started with a bout of depression in december 1997. I'd had the flu and I suppose that's what instigated the depression. I was given prozac and it was an absolute nitemare!!!! I discovered I was allergic to prozac, I couldn't eat, sleep, sit or talk. I was trapped inside a world of aggitation, frustration, confusion and extreme fear. What was happening to me? Only a few weeks before I had been an outgoing, confident, sassy teenager, now I was scared sh"!@?!s. I was completely convinced I was going crazy, and as you all know, that is an extremely scary prospect to anyone who is sane, { and you all are!!!} Anyway,.... This is when I started to suffer from a very mild form of panic. I came off the prozac but I am an extremely obsesssional thinker and I just couldn't get the prozac nitemare out of my system. I was then 16 and went to my GP who refered me to a Psychologist. From the age of 16 through to 18 I struggled most days and as a result I missed alot of school. I play trumpet and used to be in several different orchestras but the anxiety attacks were becoming more frequent and so I had to resign myself to the fact that I was going to have to quit. I couldn't cope with the symptoms, the racey heart, palpitations etc.... I am 24 now and I am prob at the worst I've ever been. At the moment I am a complete agrophobic who is pretty much constantly in a state of arousal. I take Amitriptyline to help me sleep as a night dose and I'm back on the beta-blockers. I don't socialise, I can't speak to people on the phone. It's a living hell, that many of you can prob relate to. I can't use buses, taxis, trains and I flipped out last year trying to fly back from Dublin and I panicked on the plane and the captian had to taxi back to the gates so I could get off. This is when my panic escalated and it's the reason I am so bad now. After the plane incident, I had an accident in my car, so I no longer drive either. In the last couple of years I've lost my sister to a long term illness, { which was never discussed as being fatal!} I've lost my job working with Autistism, my new flat, my car, my friends. So I've pretty much hit an all time low. My mum's health is also extremely poor and my step dad has just had a triple heart bypass so I suppose the majority of my anxiety disorder is "Health anxiety?!" Any way I am rambling on a bit aren't I?!!! I'm good at that!! LOL! So here I am! Mum found an article in her mag about this website and that's when I came across it a couple of days ago. Wish my pschciatrist had suggested it!!!
I can empathise with all who use this website and I am hoping that I can contribute and possibly relieve others of their pain and suffering?
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