Hiya , Nice forum .. Just joined ....Anyone relate??
I dont know what to do anymore. Its doing my head in . I know i would have a better life if i went out and met people or if i had a job because that would be where to start...
To start mixing with people and learning social skills etc . But i just cant.
Before i was anxious all the time about not having a gf , Now i had that for 2 years and decided to call it a day as i felt on my part that i wasnt "up " to the relationship ..
Now im back alone 25, Living on my own . No proper friends , No Job and stuck on incapacity for Social anxiety /Gad/ Depression/ avoident personality etc.
Ive been on this since i left school , I grew up with a shitty childhood most of wich all i can remmeber is my parents arguing non stop , Went on antidepressants at 17 after dropping from college due to anxiety ...
I really feel all over the place right now and cant stress how much im currently worrying about what im going to do about my ****ed up life...
Its not like i enjoy sat here isolating myself but where do we start when the only real people you see in life is your dad or mom ( Sorry for the people who dont have either/both) But the point is
Where do i begin . I tried cbt , it helpd me cope with breathing etc .Sorry for been long just felt i needed to get this one off my chest
forgot to mention im currently on martazipine . But not taken more than 2 cos it made me feel worse . And currently sleeping tablets .. I cant sleep at all ... cheers