hi, i only joined recently and really because ive finally accepted ive got major anxiety issues! I 'think' my anxiety stems from deaths of loved ones which has now left me needing to try and control every situation so the minute im in a situation i cant control, my heart goes full force, my stomach churns and twists, my appetite goes and even the smell of food can make me feel queasy and then i go into full blown 'what if' mode and all the negative thought patterns appear! to be honest i hate being like this, i want to go back to being fun, enjoying life and not worrying over everything! So there we go thats me, female 35, and ever so slightly neurotic