I'm hoping that others might be able to give me some positive insight into this. I become overwhelmed with the fear that I could become out of control and hurt someone, usually my family. Its almost always a thought of stabbing, and I don't know why because I've not had any experience related to that. It's at it's worst when I am alone with my step daughter, as I am tonight. When it's really bad I start to think about how to run away, be locked away, or how I could tell her to run for safety. I think about the shame it would bring on my family and how I would lose my husband. I've thought how I would have to kill myself if I ever did anything like that. It's awful and something that's hard to discuss, so other than my husband none of my family or friends know. It's a shameful secret, I think people would avoid me. I just want to hear if others experience this and is there any reassurance that I won't act on these horrendous thoughts.