Re: share anxiety symptoms/ stories
Hi Sheryl
You are definitely not alone,!
One thing you wrote there really sums up how i think every day
"cant tell if all caused by anxiety or has something caused me to be anxious"
this is what i struggle with every day - logically i know that the symptoms i am feeling are very real but caused by adrenaline and anxiety and that they will do me no harm, but my "anxiety head" is very good at convincing my brain that its not anxiety and that im going to die that day or else its the beginning of an degenerative disease!
I have said many times that i cant believe anxiety is causing all this as im only anxious when i get a symptom.
It has slowly crept up on me and now sadly i am anxious almost 24/7 :(
I have always been a worrier, but it really hit me when my mum died 4 years ago from a heart attack at age 54 and since then i have had "heart anxiety"
Im 40, female, overweight, ex smoker.
Ive had ecg's, a heart scan, blood tests all normal. 24 hour monitor picked up i get lots of ectopic beats
My symptoms -
awful inner trembling throughout my body upon waking
feelings in chest/head like im going down the dip on a rollercoaster
dropping sensations, like the ground has dropped suddenly by an inch or two
weird sensation like my body is turning in on itself -so hard to describe
lightheaded, like ive had a few drinks when i have not
feeling like i am walking on a spongy surface
visual vertigo
sudden sweating palms, head and a hot flush feeling washing over my chest and head (not the face)
sometimes my vision seems like it zooms in or out, kinda like when they zoom in on someone at a scary point in a move?
random sharp shooting pains in my heart area, and other parts of my body, like electric shocks
A new one for me is muscle twitching, since May, in various muscles in my body, my left upper arm has been twitching since Sunday morning and its almost constant.
things i have definitely got-
ectopic beats
restless leg syndrome
acid reflux
I was a outgoing bubbly person who worked 50 hours a week and still managed to look after the house/kids
Since this hit me, i only work 6 hours a week, have stopped socializing, very reluctant to go out on my own or even shower in the house if im alone.
Only drive if i have to, and if i must then its just local ( i live in a small town)
Wont go shopping on my own, or take the dogs out for a walk on my own
I am terrified of side effects from medication, as most of them i feel already and i just could not cope if they were exaggerated further.
Each time i visit the doctor i am reassured, however the next day i am back to square one.
I just wish i knew how it felt to be normal again.
Linda x
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