Hi last time I was here I had just changed my meds. and was pretty poorly. I've changed back to something I've tried before as GP doesn't know what else to do. I've had most SSRIs and SNRIs. I am so tired of fighting this horrible thing, my good days are only barely ok, by bad days are terrible, can't eat, can't sleep, can't function, don't want to see anyone or do anything. I've driven my few friends away. I completely lost it on Friday and walked out of work in a deeply emotional state and am now getting worked up about going back tomorrow and facing everyone. I can't take more time off work as I'm already being monitored for excess sick leave. I slept late Saturday and didn't feel like doing anything the rest of the day, and yesterday I cried most of the day and sat in front of the TV. What a waste of my life. I've had counselling and paid privately when my free sessions ran out, I've had cbt but I could choose only one subject to cover which seemed a bit pointless as I feel only part of my problems were looked at. I'm starting a mood management group in September and am hoping this will help. I have a family and a beautiful grandson so feel so guilty about my feelings. I've struggled with depression now for about 18 years, I'm tired of reading about it, thinking about it, trying different therapies - does it ever go away?