Hiya charlotte your certainly not alone hun,,theres loads of us out there all sat in our homes watching the world go by,,i also had a simular thing happen years ago when i begged my doctor for help,,ive had agoraphobia now for 20 odd year longer than youve been alive lol,,at its worse like you i couldnt even leave my bedroom,,at its best i could go anywhere do anything,,i had the worst for ten years couldnt even go near my front door,,im not trying to frighten you just letting you know im on the same level or was ,,with much hard work i can now go out most days ,,still struggle i wont lie and i have to work at it,,but it can be done,,the trick is to start very small,,if you find leaving your room hard,,practice leaving for minutes every day till this is second nature,,then downstairs,,walk to the front door ,,then open it ,,eventually step outside go back in,,never rush it just tiny steps every single day doent matter how long you take over this ,,if you need to talk im only to glad to compare notes with you,,you can beat this and will ,,i know others like us who lead a normal life now ,,and your certainly not silly this is an illness and needs treating as such keep your head high and be proud of yourself for taking your first steps to get help x