Hey,
I've always had anxiety, to varying degrees. It's actually been much better over the last year or two, and I thought the worst had passed. I used to be a member on here years back at the worst - but here I am again (I forgot my old account).
Over the last few days I've had quite severe depersonalisation/derealisation or whatever you wish to call it. The experience that, as you know, you're not in touch with reality, grounded with what is. The oddest thing is that I don't feel stressed, anxious; actually, life's never been better for me. On the other hand, I feel that the massive changes I've made for myself (moving house and job) may contribute.
Also, I am at University and part of my degree involves rather basic philosophy. Its very nature means questioning everything that is, was, and how we know it. As you can imagine, this is quite the task for someone already weak of mind.
Anyway, with these sensations come with it all the things I thought I had got rid of; severe hypercondria (I'm convinced I'm dying), social anxiety (I don't like going out now) and boorishness - nothing is fun, as it is not really happening.
As I explained to my counsellor, I'm truly scared of 'letting go', of 'drifting away' with the fairies and being one of those people in a cell with padded walls and mittens (like both my parents, unfortunately).
But I'm considering the fact that it's simply too much coffee - maybe an inane but still a potentially true idea. I drink a lot. Can this cause these sensations?
I'm still really terrified of losing it, and I keep having anxiety attacks at the thought.
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