Hi everyone i dont know how to explain this because i dont really talk about my feelings very well and apologise in advance that this is quite negative.
I havent been in very often in the last few months and the main reason is that i have become increasingly depressed since xmas and have lost the will to carryon doing things, i thought things would pick up but i have reached a point where i reach an ultimate low for hours even days on end that it scares me. I hardly ever feel normal these days and i dont know where to go from here, i know i should go for councelling but i cant bring myself to do it or even let my family know. When im like this i can see no way out and if it werent for my family i dont know what i would do. It feels as though everything is causing it and that everything adds to it, but i know that my anxiety doesnt help it. I feel as though i cant tell anyone how i feel so i just keep it in. I lay awake at night for ages before i am able to relax and go to sleep.
Lately i just stay ininstead of arranging to go out, and become easily frustrated as i am constantly irritanle and lack energy causing me to feel tired. The only way i have been able to release all this emotion lately is to hurt myself and i know this cannot go on. The reason i am writing this is because i need help overcoming this as i am beginning to find i cant do it on my own but i am not ready to tell my family as my dad is not well at the moment and i dont want to put any unneccessary stress on my family, but i am scared and need help.
Please reply
Sam