hi
not too sure whats wrong with me - i have been to docs who spent 5 mins and then told me i was anxious and gave me diazepam and cit
i have a really analytical job and tend to think in a specific way - this can be either analysing existing problems or interpreting situations in avance before they become problems - this can be anything from staffing problems to IT problems. i have done this for over 17 years and become pretty good at seeing things people dont see and having solutions for all eventualities.
the problem is that when i have a compelling event in my personal life like job change or moving house this causes chaos. i see problems before they exist and look for answers - this spirals out of control and gets ridiculous. Once i have overcame a particular problem (which may have been not as bad as i thought) i fixate on something else.
the most recent stresser has been moving house, i need to move house
and have had problems selling etc (sold in 1 day but had building standards problems) once these problems were resolved i then had other problems and am now fixating on things like mortgages and even a tree thats in my garden (i know it sounds ridiculous). Cant stop these thoughts from snowballing and getting worse.
Physically i have dropped nearly 2 stone in 3 weeks, not eating not sleeping, being sick, tremors, irritation, feel out of body sometimes
havent had the courage to use the cit as i looked at the side effects and have convinced myself that i will get them all. i will visit doc again tomorrow and will most likely ask for CBT - i am able to keep working and dont notice too much of a dip in my performance but i know i am not the same
i have good family life and am able to get some perspective from that but
theres only so many times someone can say 'nobodys died - chin up' to me
unfortunately not moving is not an option for me - hope i can get better soon - was tempted to use the cit before coming on here - even looked at the box
thanks