Hi, just need to talk, I don't know what to do anymore, my fear of breast cancer is consuming my life. I have had this fear since age 13, I am now 40. I have got through this in the past through avoidance, I can't even touch my own breasts or look at them without a major meltdown. Showering is difficult and my sex life is zero.
I had a fibroadenoma removed earlier this year. That was the last straw. My mum had breast cancer aged 67. I've had 2 courses of cbt. I can't take antidepressants they made me I'll. I feel the only other option is a mastectomy with reconstruction. I don't know what else to do. Or I can avoid them and hope I don't get cancer as I would not detect it if I did.
Has anyone got any advice? I'm going to make an appointment with my gp, but I don't know what he will do.
Thanks, feeling in despair right now :(