Re: A real unexpected dip...
With regards to your 'friend' - hunny, we don't need people like this in our life. That is NOT the behaviour of a friend. After 2 years of tip-toeing around my supposed 'friend', I am happy to say that I have finally seen the light. She was nasty, unpredictable, selfish and always ended up making me feel bad. I spent 2 years apologising and helping her to put me down! No more. And that feels great.
It sounds like you are doing really well, and you have come a long way already, be proud of that. You are a wife, a student, and you're busy with the house - that's plenty to be going on with - I hope you don't feel that you should be socialising more? Because that is really up to you and no one else. Maybe you are feeling like you want to go out more with your friends because you are married and fear this has taken a little of your independence? That would be a perfectly normal feeling, and will settle down as you get used to your new life. There have been many times in my life when I have felt that, I don't know, I wish I wanted to go out more, if that makes sense? I want to feel how I did when I was happy being much more sociable, even though I don't actually want to go out.
I hope things work out for you with baby-planning
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