Terrified Of Testicle Cancer

[Edward_1980]

I had an operation on my testicle back in 1997 where surgeons removed a lump on my left testicle. It wasn't cancer or anything, but it terrified me beyond belief. I had to go for scans and Doctor's appointments, and since I was already suffering from Anxiety and Panic Attacks, it only made it worse for me. Right now I am in full Panic mode again because the same testicle is acting up again. It is very sensitive and painful to the point where I have to sit up and down with great care. It is also hanging down a lot lower than my right one and gives me a lot of pain during the day. I have been exploring myself and feeling for any lumps, and once again it is a lot bigger than my right one. My partner has booked an appointment for me to see my GP on Thursday because he has noticed how Anxious I have become, but I am terrified of recieving the worst possible results. I am really hoping that this could be an infection (I have trouble urinating) and that I won't need another operation, but right now, with the size, position and pain, I am assuming the worst. Please god don't put me through more scans and operations.

[Annie0904]

Try to stay calm Edward, you don't have long to wait until Thursday and like you say it could just be an infection.

[Edward_1980]

I'm hoping so Annie. The last time I wasn't that Anxious because it was the start of my disorder, but this time around I am terrified that it is something terrible that the GPs won't be able to cure. The worst is swimming around my head right now and I am imagining the worst and that they won't be able to save the testicle. I need a Diazepam right now and am going to take one to calm myself. Also worried because I am about to run out of them and I'm not allowed to get any more. They have been a savior to me these past few days and just thinking about not having them after Friday is making me Anxious too.

[Annie0904]

You will hopefully feel calmer after you have seen the doctor x

[Edward_1980]

Hopefully Annie

[justina]

As you say, it sounds like some kind of infection.
Try to be calm, that's easy to say I know...
You will feel much better after seeing your doctort

[Edward_1980]

Oh, I hope so Justina. I feel helpless here

[Annie0904]

Get them candles on and some relaxing music

[Edward_1980]

I have my lavender ready for my pillow Annie

[Annie0904]

Hope you get a good nights sleep Edward