Really need some hugs today

[yvonne_uk_98]

sending you some hugs:

[Tessar]

thanks magic/yvonne. been keeping busy as that helps. in reality i'm not really very good with accepting hugs from people but have been working on tolerating them for a while now. am getting much better at it. this is good practice even if they arent 'real'

[Tessar]

oh no.... I really need more hugs again..... just found out our friend's husband is about to die, he's been fighting illness but no more can be done. Sitting at work, havent told anyone coz i know i'll cry.... & I've done so much of that lately... I dont want to go down that road again (so I thought I'd turn to my virtual friends instead).

[Annie0904]

So sorry to hear that Tessar x

[Rls1994]

Hi Tessar!

Sorry to hear about the sad news! Have some hugs!

[Tessar]

thank you i appreciate the hugs.

Is anyone else like me in reality, I wish I could let people hug me & then (assuming I trust them of course) I could just cry & let it all out?

For years I've had this image of me doing that but I just cant bring myself to let go in front of anyone. not even my counsellor. i feel like if i could that it would help me feel better much more quickly. i'm meant to be thinking about what stops me from doing this, i think its just the overwhelming feeling that i wont cope with the intensity of it all & wll feel ridiculously embarrassed about it & want to run away.

[Tessar]

i'm afraid that our friend has died. Sad. Stirs up my regularly recurring feelings about "what's the point", "why bother". I just wish i could be like a kid again. i hate that i know too much about what happens in life. i'd just like to go back to daydreaming & really believing that one day my dreams will come true. i dont really know what i'd like to dream for anymore because my ideal dream that "everything lasts forever" is never going to happen. Most times I've found things i really like, they seem to be taken away from me. so i end up not hoping too hard because otherwise i will lose the things i like again.

[Annie0904]

Sorry to hear about your friend and sending you more hugs

[Magic]

so sorry

[Tessar]

thank you .....