Help! I feel like my life is falling apart! I think it might just be regular quarter-life crisis jitters, but I'm afraid it's something worse.
About 2.5 years ago, I started getting really bad chest pains and heart palpitations. I was about to start a new job in Alaska, and I guess I was justifiably anxious. It was my 1st job out of college and I was leaving all my friends and family, but I was excited to go on a new adventure. Before I left, I was incredibly worried that I was pregnant (even though it was highly unlikely), then when I got to Alaska, I lived in fear that I had contracted some horrible disease (AIDS, cancer, you name it, also highly unlikely). I was so afraid that I would die, that I got married to a person I hardly knew and moved to Los Angeles to be with him. He's the most amazing man and has supported me through everything, but I'm afraid I made the wrong decision. I left him and then feared I wouldn't be able to live without him. I'm so afraid of authority and work situations that I can't work. I'm also so worried about what my friends think. When I go to coffee shops or other public places, i worry that the reason the guy behind the counter is taking such a long time is because he doesn't like me. I've been sitting on the fence in terms of my marriage. I always have a bag packed at the door. Really, I do. My husband is amazing and is helping me get help. But I'm not so sure I'm not just going through regular jitters people often go through.
Any insight would be appreciated.