Hi everyone, in the space of 5 weeks ive sadly lost both of my Grandads, both quite suddenly and im really struggling to cope, its one of theirs funeral tomo and really don't know how im going to get through it, i just can't stop crying and feel physically ill and emotionally drained, my anxiety has been playing up aswel to the point i had a panic attack yesterday morning, the first one in months as i had been doing so well, i just feel so numb and still shocked and can't believe this has happened in such a short space of time, my doc and cpn have tried to reassure me that what im feeling is completely normal and all part of the grieving process but im so scared im going backwards, can grief really make you feel so ill? xxxxxxx