How are the majority of people able to get on with life without worrying about death? I feel horrible, I feel like i don't want to take part in life. I just want to be like everyone else.
Looking at it objectively I can kind of see that it's because I'm so tense and depressed that I worry excessively and have such morbid thoughts. That if i wasn't ill I wouldn't have these thoughts.
It's just so frustrating. I feel like I experience life differently from most people. Even when i have been getting better I don't seem to be able to cross the line back into feeling normal. It must be that there is an anxiety level and once you drop below it you start to relax, but I just can't seem to bring myself down that far.
I just don't understand how people can accept that they will one day die calmly. I guess they presume that it won't be for years, but it might be tomorrow.
I just want to be better. I'm so sick of this.
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.