Hi,
I am feeling pretty low today as the bad weather is keeping me in and no one is phoning me and i am sick of phoning them . i cannot keep on bothering family members over the holiday period as i cannot always go into detail what is bothering me ie anxiety, depression and sometimes suicidal thoughts. I am in the old catch 22 cannot be in company as i get socially anxious and on my own for to long i get a bit lonely.
I am 43 and still dealing with this crap so much for maturity and when i am well i am quite ok spending time on my own. I've been on medication for a week and a half now so i know the worst is over but every day a struggle and professional help can take quite a while to organise.
Sorry to be pessimistic i have given up smoking, drinking and have a poor appetite so i cannot even enjoy my old vices any more.
Anyway 2013 is just around the corner and i wish nmp members a happy new year.