I've just got back from a new year's party. There were 4 of us in our group - me, my friend, my friend's work colleague, and the colleague's husband.
Before we walked to the party, we all had something to eat and drink. I told my friend that I can't have alcohol due to my medication, so I'd be having soft drinks all night. I'd told her this a couple of months ago when I last went on a night out with her, but she had forgotten so she asked me what the tablets are for. I felt uneasy answering that in front of my friend's friend (work colleague) and her husband, but anyway I told the truth and said anxiety.
Then my friend said she's glad she's not on these tablets (I know she likes drinking a lot). Then my friend's friend butted in and said that she wouldn't want to take them either. I thought that's all well and good for her - she's not the one who had to suffer constant intrusive thoughts. Then the friend's friend said that whenever she feels bad, she just deals with it. So I replied that I'm hoping to come off the medication in 2013 as I've learnt lots of coping techniques, and that I'll be seeing my doctor again in a month's time to discuss this. But then my friend's friend said "oh, doctors prescribe these tablets to anyone regardless of whether people actually need them!"
That comment really hurt me - it felt as if my friend's friend was implying that this isn't a real illness, or that I didn't really need the help I've been receiving. She doesn't even know me that well, and she hardly takes any notice of me, yet somehow she's an expert on my medical needs! My own friend didn't really back me up, but I don't think she really understands anxiety. So then I said to this girl "i did really need the tablets as I was in a really bad way." As I reached the end of that sentence, I felt my voice starting to crack up a bit. She didn't say any more and there was an awkward silence. No apology or anything!
I then felt scared that I was going to have a panic attack in front of this girl and that she'd think I am crazy. I kept feeling like I was going to burst into tears, and a couple of waves of nausea shot through me. I felt tense and jittery - I tried to distract myself by looking at my phone, and I didn't want anyone to see my face in case they noticed I was upset.
Thankfully I made it through the night, and even though this girl's comments kept playing on my mind, I still managed to enjoy myself.
Was this girl being insensitive or do you think I misunderstood her comments? I don't understand why she butt in in the first
---------- Post added at 02:38 ---------- Previous post was at 02:35 ----------
Sorry, the last sentence should end with "in the first place." Phone playing up!