First of all a Happy New Year to all on this site!
Wishing I wasn't writing this but really don't know where to turn. I make no secret of the fact that I am quite lonely and do not have many friends close by, which is why I am always a lot happier when in a relationship with someone.
After breaking up with my ex after 2 and a half years last year, I met a new girl in December who I really like. I went on quite a few dates throughout second half of last year, but finally think she is someone who I could see myself with.
The problem is after 3 positive dates including a lovely day on Saturday, I am just beside myself with anxiety and worry that she will no longer want to see me. She said she really enjoyed my company so far but despite that, all I think of is what if she changes her mind? I'm not someone who falls in love straight away and I know that relationships take time to develop, but I really can't stand how awful my anxiety is making me feel right now.
We have been texting each other quite a bit but even then I still just panic that I will get a message saying I think we should leave things or worse still, just get ignored completely. I want to be happy in life but right now all I worry about is how awful I am going to feel if things come to an end with her. At the same time the anxiety of "what if" it comes to an end means I am miserable most of the day. I cried Sunday night simply because I was sick of feeling like this and I don't know how it will stop.
Do others suffer the same problems, should I be looking at getting some proper help like counselling?