It reappeared Christmas eve and has stuck since, I was looking forward to Christmas, was caught up in the hype as usual then Christmas eve a sadness hit me and has developed into that on edge anxious feeling. I feel low now as I never enjoyed Xmas as was to depressed, I never went to relatives as was to anxious, and now its back to work on Monday and I am dreading it, New Year is supposed to be a fresh sheet but all I can think of is another year of this crap and can't find anything positive to look forward to, the future just seems so bleak.