I have hit the wall today. I can't stop crying and shaking. I feel as though there is no way I will survive this winter - I literally feel that it's killing me. I cannot cope with this norovirus being in the news ANOTHER DAY!!! I don't know how I have coped this long. I really tried over Xmas to deal with it sensibly, not looking at news stories, focusing on reassuring statistics, and so on, but it just seems never-ending and I am running out of strength.
Then there is the snow... more is coming to my area over the weekend and the thought of it makes me want to die so that I won't have to deal with it. I know that must sound stupid, and I know there are people who love it and think that people who don't are killjoys, but I hate and dread snow, I am really petrified of it. It makes me feel so claustrophobic and vulnerable, alone in the house. Last time the snow was bad here, the hospital was completely inaccessible for four days, and I was in an agony of fear the whole time. Also, I've often heard that very cold weather, and especially snow, makes winter viruses last longer, so that's another reason to hate it.
I also have a whole heap of personal problems, which I won't go into here, as I don't want to raise too many issues in one thread, but my mum has really lowered my resistance this week by talking at great length about all my problems, my unemployment and so on, and making everything sound completely hopeless. I haven't got out of the house for weeks, and then it was only to the supermarket. I am so tired of being around the house, I am sick of inside activities, I can't even read (normally I read voraciously) and yet I am scared of going outside because of the snow and all these horrible viruses.
I hope someone replies, but if not at least I can vent on here. Thanks to anyone reading x
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