Hey everyone, so basically Ive already written half my life story in my introduction,
(I cant post the link to my intro yet)
So as the title says i suffer with emetophobia & IBS, I current am struggling to go to work, my doctor has signed me off for 2 weeks to rest as I was running myself down, im scared to be sick, any feeling that can relate to maybe being sick makes me panic, for example: a full stomach, intergestion etc. I also suffer with IBS, so the combination of the 2 doesn't help as with IBS you get a lot of abdomen pain, I seem to have good and bad weeks/days, I feel as if I have 2 main panic triggers,
1/ when I hear people talk about others being ill I always seem to go down hill, but Im thinking this is due to my subconscious as I can be totally fine and a few hours later Ill be panicking that im going to be ill,
2/ This will sound weird, but sometimes I feel sick-e-fied (i know its not a word) but some days I feel really Bleh, and normal I get a horrible abdomen pain, with this I panic like mad, and its takes me all day plus a lot of relaxing and a wasted day.
I think the 2nd trigger is the worst as i can ignore the 1st sometimes, but the 2nd trigger worries me, I feel maybe there is something wrong, or maybe i am ill, and no one understands what I mean, why am I the only one who feels like this? Ive had blood tests and all sorts done.
Going back through my life, Ive only been sick 4 times,
Once when I was a kid and had high temp(age 5),
Second was when I had appendicitis high temp(18),
**Third and Forth was (age 21&22) with noro**
Basically all my life I was rarely sick as you can see, but when I was 16, I smoked some weed, to impress a girl who was doing it, Its still my fault I know.
What happened, I was left on my own, and I went dizzy, I felt set back in my own eyes, like looking through binoculars the wrong way, and I literally had a two second memory and started to panic, but I kept forgetting everything. long story short, I ended up with panic attacks, that I over come, but I was left with anxiety of being sick, now when I had the nero the first time at aged 21, I was 100% in my life, wasn't nice but I did it and was still alive, but 1 year 1month I had it again, and something snapped in my brain, I now fear that every time I get a stomach ache it could be noro, because when I had the noro, I started with a stomach ache and then its got worse. I suffer with IBS that give me stomach aches all the time, it doesnt help
cheers for reading
Jason x